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Instilled
03:21
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It's been raining here all week.
And you said you would rather be somewhere else.
But you never see the way I look at you.
I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
The sidewalk is full of people you don't know.
You say they don't matter to you.
But when we go out to lunch, it matters to you.
And when the waitress leaves, I sneak a kiss or two.
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2. |
Consciousness
01:47
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I said I was coming home at eight but I got stuck in traffic.
You said that's okay. I'll see you when you get here.
So I sat there and wondered how you had spent your time.
Just reading a book or taking a nap and sleeping it all away.
And I thought about how you had waited through your whole day
to see me walk through the door and say,
I love you and I hope you're okay.
And I guess the little things like that are what keeps me sane
and if I didn't come home to you, I'd have nowhere else to stay.
I don't care if we grow older than
the cemetery you pass on your way to work.
Or even if you forget my name.
Hear me out, you are everything I've needed my whole life.
You are a never ending sea,
you are the moment right before I fall asleep.
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3. |
Why I'm Happy Here
02:45
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Don't pace yourself, my love.
The sun's nearly up,
and I've waited all night to wake up where you are.
Don't you think it would make so much sense if you just stayed?
It's raining anyway.
So find your own way, the bed's calling your name.
I won't know your name so fast, I forget everything.
But I won't forget the way it felt to climb on top of you
and not give a damn about anything else.
So fight, stay the night.
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4. |
Bedroom
02:54
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It's 6am and sunlight starts to fill up the room.
Wish I was looking in your eyes.
But you don't sleep here anymore.
You don't sleep at all.
But I don't want you to grieve.
I've got so many days left in this city.
Shaking off thoughts of you.
Walk around by myself at night.
Make sure my head's alright.
Do you still stay up until the sunlight fills the room?
Do you wanna look in my eyes?
But you're not sleeping anymore.
You're not sleeping at all.
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5. |
Study
02:50
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What is left here for me?
I don't think about it, no I don't.
But if you showed up at my door,
I'd forget about the problems life has shown.
We don't have to leave 'till four.
So tell me what you're thinking, I'm so sure
that it means more to me then I could show.
(In school we study and read paragraphs from textbooks.
We write down ideas with a pencil and pen.
But today I'm so tired and the rain makes it worse.
Right now if I could I'd study your body
and write on your skin with my fingertips.)
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6. |
Freezing
03:25
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How far is the door from where you sleep?
Are your bones still frozen to the bed?
Can you leave your room to see me again?
I know that your time isn't well worth spent.
But you, you won't talk to me.
That's okay, I'd hate me too.
I'd hate me if I were you.
If I told you every word I meant
would it still sink into your head?
There's a million things I'd like to bet
on the thought of us every speaking again.
But you, you won't talk to me.
That's okay, I'd hate me too.
I'd hate me if I were you.
And the thought of always ruining anything
that you look forward to is seeped into my brain.
I'm sorry that I fucked up, maybe I could try again.
I would hate to lose someone who really made my life begin.
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7. |
Leafless
03:30
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Came up short again I bet.
Tried to compete with myself instead.
Wasted time, I wasted yours.
Forgot the things that mattered more.
I'll try to sleep it all away.
The morning slowly shows it's face.
Under the blankets I wanna stay.
I've been a lot worse then I can start to say.
So I'll wait here tonight
and say I'm sorry about a hundred million times.
You looked me in the eyes and it struck me once again
I've done absolutely nothing to change how things went.
Borrowed some strength from the trees.
It's weird how they have secrets still to keep.
I have nothing, not even just one fucking leaf.
If you yelled out timber, I wouldn't look beneath me.
So I'll wait here tonight
and say I'm sorry about a hundred million times.
You looked me in the eyes and it struck me once again
I've done absolutely nothing to change how things went.
And I'm trying to be the best that I can.
I want you to stay, my time is yours to spend.
I looked you in the eyes and it struck you once again,
I'm doing absolutely everything to be okay again.
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8. |
Stay
04:22
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Don't you tell me things are changing
when I'm not at my best.
You know I haven't slept very well.
You always look me right in the eyes
when we talk about what's going wrong in our lives.
But I don't like to hear myself talk.
You are the only thing I want to hear.
Tell me how everything is falling apart.
Dad's staying out and never calling home.
And Mom's crying loud with her hand glued to the phone.
You can't say a thing because you're always wrong.
Friends can't seem to help, are you all alone?
I think that you just need a day far away.
I can't promise things will work out
but I will love you today.
And I know that you're sick to your stomach
and they just haven't stopped.
You just want some peace and some solidarity.
I understand completely.
'Cause Dad's staying out and never calling home.
And now Mom's crying slow, her hand glued to the phone.
You can't say a thing because you're always wrong.
Friends can't seem to help, are you all alone?
You ran away from home late sometime last night
and I ran around searching the city far and wide.
I found you at the park with your knees clutched to your chest.
They weren't far away, going 60 down the lane.
Headlights filled your face, and I started to say,
Dad came back home last night, Mom's doing okay.
Things are working out, they love you today.
You just need to stay, don't go far away.
Things are just fine, they love you today.
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9. |
Rest Assured
03:26
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I've noticed a difference between you and I.
That is unmistakably entertwined.
You love drinking endless cups of coffee
and reading anything Bukowski writes.
You've got everything going right.
If only you knew that I can't even pull myself together
on the loneliest of nights.
And I won't do anything to change my life
even though you say I really need to.
Because I don't have any kind of strive
to believe in myself, yeah that's right.
But maybe I just need some reassurance.
I can tell from your shaking legs that you're nervous.
You told me that I lack a sense of effort.
And that I shouldn't lay in bed all day.
But if I go outside to excercise I might realize
that I have stablized myself into another lie.
And I don't want to lie anymore.
I've noticed a difference between you and I.
I'm starting to wake up early, yeah that's right.
I'm reading anything anyone writes.
I think everything is starting to go right.
I've pulled myself together and I'm not lonely tonight.
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Scotty McCarty Lake Wales, Florida
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